One thing people often ask me is how I’m able to keep a cheerful disposition with what our family is going through. I think that’s a great question, because I have often wondered the same thing about others who are going through trials.
I’ll do my best to explain to you how I can keep on smiling.
First, I want to point out that it hasn’t always been this way. Last fall was hard. I cried a lot. My husband and I were stressed. We were shocked with how quickly everything had gone downhill. We were struggling to understand what was happening to our family. And yes, we were fighting. It wasn’t pretty. It really wasn’t. We love each other, but disagreed on how to handle things.
However, you get used to life as you live it. Someone who doesn’t live your life might see a glimpse into your home at times and wonder how you’re able to cope. Well I can cope because I’m living it. It’s my normal. Day in and day out I am faced with the reality of OCD. While it isn’t easy, it’s always in our face and we have grown somewhat accustomed to it.
For the most part I’ve reached a point where I can handle OCD in the home. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not perfect and this has not come easily. But I’m adapting. It’s becoming my life and that is ok. I certainly hope and pray that this doesn’t continue forever! I try not to go there in my mind…but I’m far from perfect! Every once in awhile it catches up to me. Every once in awhile I feel down. But my trial is nothing compared to what others are going through.
I think as we go through trials, we tend to put our best foot forward for various reasons. We fake our smiles. We don’t want to talk about our pain all the time. We want some normalcy in our lives. We don’t want people to know just how sad we are. There are many other reasons as well for people going through trials to put a fake smile on their face.
But the main reason that my husband and I are able to remain truly cheerful is that God’s grace has been sufficient.
“How Can I Keep From Singing” is such a beautiful hymn and I love the chorus:
“No storm can shake my inmost calm
while to that Rock I’m clinging.
Since Christ is Lord of heaven and earth,
how can I keep from singing?”